Ahhhhh the mom took me to Best Buy last night, picked up some kick ASS DVD's (Punch-Drunk Love, The Hours, Adaptation, and the Big Lebowski, for those of you who cared), and two really awesome CD's. Am in LOVE with Morning View by Incubus. I have been listening to it nonstop for the past day, so wow. It has made my top 5. So, in the spirit of High Fidelity - top 5 favorite albums of all time, people. Gimme your lists!

Tear drop 6:34 PM of Sarah

Hanging out with everyone last night really made me realize (even MORE) just how much I was missing by being locked away in my room by my evil, evil mother. I had so much fun that it was insane... I had forgotten what a 3 am trip to Waffle House in your pajamas can do for you. Hanging out and eventually trying to fall asleep on Jason's bed was much fun, as was making Sara uncomfortable... (erection! ha!) and eventually just trying to doze. Community service was not so much fun, but me and Ian sleeping on the floor of AutoIndulgence like homeless bums was very cool. Am now dirty, sweaty, exhausted, exhausted, more exhausted, and, excuse me for saying this... I SMELL of other people's recycling. Bleh!
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Tear drop 5:00 PM of Sarah

I don't wanna talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue every time
You come around
'Cause blood in my mouth beats
Blood on the ground
Hand over my heart I swear
I've tried everything I could
Within all my power
2 weeks and 1 hour
I slaved and now
I've got nothing to show
Oh if only you've grown
Taller than a brick wall
From now on
Gonna start holding my breath
When you
Come around and
You flex that fake grin
'Cause something inside me has
Said more than twice
That breathing this air
Beats breathing you at all

I don't wanna talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue every time
You come around
'Cause blood in my mouth beats
Blood on the ground

Hand over my mouth
I'm earning the right
To my silence
In quiet discerning
Between ego and timing
Good judgment is once again
Proving to me
That it's still worth
Its weight in gold
From now on I'm gonna be
So much more weary
When you start to speak and
My warm blood starts to boil
Seeing you is like pulling teeth
And hearing your voice
Is like chewing tin foil

I don't wanna talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue every time
You come around
'Cause blood in my mouth beats
Blood on the ground

I'm fast to a better judgment
By saying less today
I will gain more, gain more
No cheers to you my
My fickle friend
You, you brought
The art of silent war

I don't wanna talk to you anymore
I'm afraid of what I might say
I bite my tongue every time
You come around
'Cause blood in my mouth beats
Blood on the ground

This had to be done. Too important for song of the day. Fuck.

Tear drop 1:05 AM of Sarah

HOLY FUCKING SHIT ON A STICK, BATMAN! Sarah will be allowed out of her house legally come Monday after work! WOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tear drop 8:45 PM of Sarah

You know what really sucks? Knowing that someday soon, this is all going to come to a terrible catastrophic end.

Tear drop 5:26 PM of Sarah

Urm, discovered that the trip to the dentist left me incredibly numb. The numb stayed for about 6 hours or so, during which I tried to eat and kind of gnawed on myself a bit. Yay for that.

Tear drop 6:55 PM of Sarah

Who all is going to the midnight release party for Harry Potter 5: The Order of the Phoenix on Friday? I am I am I am! And I am super excited, can you tell? It was fun to be visited by Chandler, Ian, Clarke, and Jason today, that totally brightened my day. Woo for people!

Tear drop 5:57 PM of Sarah

I'm in such a fabulous mood! Day one of having visitors starts today, WOO! And I'm expecting a fun mix with fun cover art, and my mom is gone for the day, and I was like line manager or something crazy at work (!!!) and I've had "Love You Madly" by Cake stuck in my head all day and it's playing on my Kazaa thingy. Plus I slept really really really well last night, yay for that. Wow. Am in such a good mood. And it is BEAUTIFUL outside. Wooo!!!!

Tear drop 3:15 PM of Sarah

OOOh! I meant to say this earlier, but it keeps slipping my mind. I would like to thank Amy, I think it was Amy, for leaving this nifty mix on my doorstep yeserday morning. I haven't actually been able to listen to it yet, because nothing in my house will load it, but it LOOKS cool, at least, and the title kicks ass. Yay. So thank-you muchly, it's making me happy just looking at it. Woo!

Tear drop 1:36 AM of Sarah

Somebody wouldn't stop playing Tekken last night, so some other person didn't get a whole lot of sleep. Am napping. Parents are thinking about letting me start having people over on Monday. Who wants to come?

Tear drop 6:01 PM of Sarah

Hey guys... decided it was time for a new template, so here you go. "Colorful Bubbles" is officially retired. However, if you scroll down you see that the song keeps repeating itself. I want to keep the song up, but don't know how to make it not repeat all funky like. If anyone has any ideas, let me know. Also the Comments from the post and then the date from the post previous to that are all squashed together on the same line and I can't figure that out either. And are my archives working? Let me know.

Tear drop 2:21 PM of Sarah

I received this today in the mail...

Dear Sarah,
You have received this friendly reminder from the heavens above that we do NOT give a shit about you. While you may think that your situation is going to improve sometime in the near future, you are sadly mistaken. Things are looking up, yes? People are starting to come over, you've been good, your mother is forgiving you? Wrong. You are out of our favor. Prepare for more trouble and pain than you are prepared for and tighten your seatbelt. It's going to be a bumpy ride.
- God

Sick bastard. Whoever wrote this really, really, really deserves a punch in the face.

Tear drop 3:20 PM of Sarah

Another day is past, and the adventures in smoking continue to mount in their hilarity, as I've tried smoking in my bathroom, only to find I'd locked myself out of my room. I had to take the fuzz off one end of a QTIP in order to let myself back in. I've also dropped one out my bedroom window when a huge freaking bug decided to zoom in the window at my FACE. It was scary. Thankfully, am going to work where will be free to smoke until 5 pm and blame it on somebody else. Yay for that. Send pictures, drawings, colored kids menus, text messages, anything. Am in need of human contact, though my sister is being very fun. :)

Tear drop 11:30 AM of Sarah

Hi guys! So, I got busted trying to sneak out of my house last night and ended up not being able to lie very convincingly that I had just gone for a walk, and had to talk to my dad for nearly two hours, which was great, and I have been told that if I screw up just one more time, I'm out of the house, but if I'm good I can have people start coming over sometime next week. So I'm going to be good. I'm not going to sneak out. However, if anyone wants to come stand outside my window and say hi, that would be awesome, or email me, or call me, or im me, or sneak into my room at like 2:30 in the morning, that's cool too. And someone come up with a plan that will allow me to have a cigarette because I'm practically itching with the need to smoke one. Yippee!

Tear drop 12:48 PM of Sarah

From this minute forward, until further notice, you are grounded. That means you may not drive anywhere, nor may you be driven anywhere by anyone except your parents or another adult for any reason. You may, after a time TBD, have friends here, but you may not visit out of the house with friends. No movies, no parties, no hanging out, no walks with anyone except your family at a prearranged time, no nothing except work. When you are at home, you will keep your suite clean and tidy at all times. You may watch movies, play games, read books, spin flags, run/walk on the clubhouse treadmill (requires prearrangement with your parents), swim in the HH pool (again, prearranged), help keep this house clean and tidy, take the dogs for walks (prearranged) do laundry, iron, cook, decide on and work on at home projects, bun cd's, listen to music, get up at a reasonable hour each day, and take your punishement like an 18 year old. You will pay for the headlamp assembly (about $100), any fine, the $50 I just prepaid for your defensive driving course, and any increase in insurance due to your singular lack of judgment. You won't need any money as you won't be going anywhere. Contrition, courtesy, and a positive attitude will get you further than pouting and railing against fate. If you have any questions about your summer or your list of possible summer activities, please speak with one or both of your parents.
P.S. You will be taking the Nathan's Defensive Driving Course next week, 6/11/-/12, from 6:30 - 9:30 each night at the Old Roswell Road location. It costs $50 prepaid, $60 at the door. You will also be writing a great eassay for the judge, and will have it finished, printed, and handed to me by the time you go to work this Saturday a,m. I will be looking into community service possibilites for you, and will discuss that with you anon. You may also be required to pay the retainer for an attorney.
Signed, Lisa H. Thomas, mother

Tear drop 8:32 PM of Sarah

Just so you all know, my mom has taken away my car keys and I am grounded indefinitely. I am also very, very hungover right now, so I am NOT feeling to peachy. Yay for traffic court.

Tear drop 5:00 PM of Sarah

FUCK. So, we have court tomorrow. Yippee. Already a big funfest, right? But no, it gets better. My mother and father have changed their minds and are coming with me to court, and my mom is probably NOT going to sit outside and let me handle it by myself, instead she'll sit in there with me. And yeah, she'll be a bit surprised to see Ian there as well, and even more surprised when I g et called up for my tickets that I got that night with Ian. Can't you see me explaining that one, in the middle of the court room, as my mom FLIPS OUT? I'm sure that will go well. Quite positive, actually. I'm going to be dead, you have no fucking idea. If they were ready to kick me out because I didn't answer my cell phone, well, I'm definitely getting kicked out after this. I plan on getting completely smashed off my ass afterwards, and not coming home. Sound like a plan to anyone else? Yeah, thought so.

Tear drop 11:59 PM of Sarah

Normally when I stay up all night I go off to see the sunrise with someone, to share that beauty. But this morning I was driving home from Chandler's (after spending a good hour or so in the Kroger parking lot talking), feeling absolutely exhausted with the world (it's been a trying day) and wanting nothing more than to go to sleep, kiss my dad good-bye, sleep some more, and remember to change my license. But while I was driving I put on the Practical Magic soundtrack and listened to Stevie and Joni, and I watched the sky get lighter, so that it was no longer the black black that it gets out in Chandler's remote end of town, but instead a deep blue. There were cars on the road, and in all the bakeries and sandwich shops I passed there were lights on inside, people making bread, cleaning. The world was waking up, just as I was getting ready to go to bed. This is how summer should be - staying up all night with good friends, talking about important things and receiving absolution, and driving home in the brilliance of the world almost-awake. I'm still exhausted, and I still want nothing more than to do what I said before, but now I feel more calm, peaceful, which I haven't felt in quite a while. It's amazing what an early morning drive can do for you, as opposed to night driving (which depresses the hell out of me). Early morning driving wakes you up to the world, makes you realize that there is so much unappreciated beauty in it that goes unseen so much because we are too busy racing around, getting things done, getting pissed when we get stuck in traffic, and becoming too wrapped up in our own lives. It was nice not to have to be racing somewhere in order to see the sun come up, watch our little town arise and start the day afresh. Leaves one feeling somewhat whole again.

Tear drop 6:23 AM of Sarah